Deception has been part of my life for so long, I don’t know any other way. Deceiving, not telling the truth, outright lies…it’s all there. For example, this morning I deceived my boss. I told her I was late because I had to take care of Dad…but really, I was late because I was watching Craig Ferguson (the Scottish host of the Late Late Show…hot, great accent, really funny). His guest was Eric Idle, from the famous Comedy Troupe, Monty Python. I loved them back in the day…smoke a joint, or do something else just a bit before it came on (no DVRs, VCRs or anything like it back then) and laugh and laugh. Of course, you could laugh without the chemical aids but…hey, it was the 70s.
So…deception. I deceived my first husband, and my second as well. I won’t say how, but why? Because I could. Sometimes deception is so much easier than the truth. Sometimes, tho, it comes back to bite you in the ass. My ass hasn’t been bitten yet…but there’s still time, plenty of it (both time and ass). At least, I THINK there’s time. That’s another thing: Life deceives you in many ways and one of those ways is thinking you have time to do this or time to do that. Maybe you do…and maybe you don’t. A bit scary, if you stop to think about it. But I don’t. Because in addition to deception, I practice lots and lots of hiding my head in the sand. A deceptive ostrich, that’s me!
Why? Who knows…maybe it’s part of my genes, maybe it’s a coping mechanism, maybe it’s just the way I am. But I’ve pretty much been this way since I can remember. Can an old dog learn new tricks? Better yet, why would an old dog want to learn new tricks? He (or she) gets fed either way…
Deception; wicked, tricksy, false, something Gollum said in the LOTR movies. Maybe that’s why my license plate says GOLLUM. Maybe that’s why I identify with Snape? Nah, that’s another story altogether. But…I bet it’s why I’m so entranced by Heath Ledger’s portrayal of The Joker. No ego, a bit of a sadist, but…is that the truth or just what I want to see?
You tell me…deception. Is it part of your life? It’s part of mine…just like coffee and photography and Led Zeppelin and a lovely little shiba inu named Wolf.
Deception: this whole story was a deception